The Dream Log

In my dream, i was walking down a hallway and at the end of the hallways was an elevator. I entered and saw that my mom was standing in the elevator. i got a feeling it had been a very long time since i had seen her. She greated me with a warm, gentle smile. In her arms was a baby. I don’t know if the baby was hers or someone elses. I assume not hers since my mom is in her fifties already. I asked her why she was holding the baby and she said ’ because you have to take care of it now’. Now the baby started to sicken me. I’ve always hated babies, i dislike them. I never want to hold babies, touch them, feed them or play with them or even look at them. She told me i was chosen to be the baby’s godmother. I stood there for 5 minutes and then i realised that i was now going to be a part of this baby’s life, i had to. And suddenly i felt the urge to caress the baby’s cheeks, and kiss it and hold it and play with it. And i did and it giggled. And i held the baby and i asked my mom if i was doing it right, if i was supporting it’s little head enough, i wanted to protect it with my life. And then i woke up with warmest feeling in my heart i have ever felt.

I’m still not sure whether i like babies now or not??